RIP

 Why do I keep repeating the same mistakes? Why don’t I learn? I said I would never fall into the same trap. I will never delay visiting someone for “tomorrow”. And I won’t lose someone again before saying all I need to say to them.

Yesterday, it was the big cleaning day. By the time I had finished the house chores and had a shower, it was already 2 pm. I wanted to go out and check on the stray dogs that the man I met on the beach used to feed, but I was too tired to make it. Instead, I slept for three hours.

Today, I met with Anita, and we went for a walk. We walked along the beach until we arrived at the place where the dog used to be. The man used to whistle to call the dog. I didn’t know how to whistle so Anita did. He wasn't there. We kept walking until we reached the hotel area, I checked if the little dogs were there but they weren't there either. After a while, we found ourselves on the main street so we decided to go back. While walking, I was talking to Anita and looking at her when she suddenly froze. When I looked ahead, a dead dog was laying down. After I turned my face away, I had another look and recognized it was the dog I was looking for on the beach. What a shock!

We kept walking. After a few meters, Anita asked me whether I would like to say or do something for him. I said I would like to bury him. we went back to him. We made a hole in the sand, then we tried to carry him but he was too heavy. We decided to make another hole closer to the pavement. While trying to carry him, I noticed some bubbles coming out of his nose. For a moment, I thought he was still alive and there was a chance to save him. Anita, however, said he was already dead and the blood just kept coming out of his carcass.

This was the second time I told myself I would visit someone tomorrow but by the time tomorrow arrived, they had gone. The first time, it happened with my father and this time, it was with the stray dog and both lost their lives in accidents! I had a lot of questions to ask my father, I will never get answers to. I wanted to ask the man to give the dog a name and to build a bond with the dog but the dog is not here anymore.

I hope he's in a better place now and that he knows I cared about him!