All Over My Face

 I'm a person whose emotions are written all over my face. When I'm scared, it's shown on my face and my physical gestures. When I'm around someone I don't like, people can see that clearly through my face and the way I react. So yeah, I looked unhappy sometimes in Sri Lanka. However, I had, and still have, all the reasons to be so. I traveled to Sri Lanka with a lot of uncertainties.

When I was at Angela's place, she used to say I looked sad. There were reasons for that, too. I went to Hurghada to run away from my mother and our fights together. She wasn't diagnosed at that time. I also didn't have a job. In addition, I felt guilty for being away from home, especially with my plan to stay away from home as long as possible.

On another note, I'm not sure whether this is how my natural facial expressions are, no matter how happy or unhappy I feel! I'm not a person who would joke and keep playing around or talk with others all the time. I might sound and/or look serious most of the time but I smile and laugh other times. Yes, I like sad songs and dramatic movies. But also, I like comedies.

I try to have meaningful experiences and to connect with people: going for a walk with my nephew, or on my own, cooking or baking and cleaning around the house, and reading about history and human atrocities gives some sense to my unmeaningful life. It doesn't mean that I make the most of my time every day. No, sometimes, my day is wasted for nothing. I'm a human after all.